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Its sad to think people still force their kids to follow a certain line of career. Because of the way my parents treat me, I have taken for granted that the world outside is the same. They have never questioned my aims. They may express disfavor of arts based lines, but , they have always promoted and supported my interests. As far as I can remember , I have always yearned to work in a field of science. My earliest memory is of coming home from school, in prep I think, and drink lemonade while watching boogie woogie and discovery channel. I could never catch kids discovery on time, it was aired from 4-5 (evenings used to start at 4 back then) . I would be sleeping by 4 , so I'd watch wild discovery , extreme bodies, i shouldnt be alive and this one series on real life incidence based horror stories. A lot of them were like a refined version of paranormal activity. Those scientists were like gods to me. I paid undivided attention to whatever they would say regarding the documentary. I was in such awe. I always wished I would have that kind of knowledge some day. So other than those regular wishes of pokemon coming to life, or expecting a spirit in my beyblade overnight,even a hunt date with a t rex seemed like a brilliant idea, this was my main dream. The one thing I wanted so bad.
It was practically wishing to be a nerd. I tried ,but only in the sense that I tried studying. It seems so frivolous now, but back then, I loved mugging up science facts. I wasn't particularly fond of maths, and I hated civic science and language. Ripley was another one of my favourite. Axn was all ripleys and Xena back then. I loved those shows too but nothing beat discovery. Nat geo was boring and animal planet was usually not available .
But then something tragic happened. Around ninth standard, I fell into anime. Thankfully , from the time my interest increased in the stream, they used to have good shows. So I still miss watching the lot of them. But as a mid teen, it got worse. I became a social outcast and dedicated all my spare time to anime. I had friends , some very good people, but I guess it was that time when you feel lost and can't control your actions. Something again happened before eleventh and I decided to go against my standard aspiration to become a wildlife expert. And so, it was adios biology and welcome maths. Science was the only thing that kept my percentage above average . And now I was going to have loads of it.
I was never really good at studies you see. Above average…..or actually, slightly above that too, but yes never the nerd I intended to be. But they treated me so. Although it was mostly comparative. I didn't talk much about my life and people assumed I didn't have one.
Enter college and you find people , good in studies and expert at their hobbies at the same time. So I kind of feel glad to be out of school because of that. I still feel alone at times, but if you think about it, no one is ever really satisfied with their lives. I loathed my life in school and now I just feel grateful that I experienced all that. And now I am also super disinterested in programming languages, so , as of July, I plan on avoiding a software based career…………oh god who am I kidding…
Thankfully I had the best of everything, my family with me , and loads of good people to spend time with.
Three years back , I asked a young lady doing post graduation in chemical engineering, about what branches are suitable for maths and physics students. She said 'instrumentation and control'. I never thought about it till I started college. And my conclusion given to recent events….life can be so spooky at times….
I still dislike things at the moment but I know it'll be just a memory in a few days. If am irked by something , I just ignore it. It all ends some day . Life is infact a journey .
And right now I don't think I'd care if it all ends because, it will eventually. I can't say it wouldn't matter to me if I die right now or anything, but yes , I don't feel scared anymore. I just simply don't care . Not in an apathetic or a pitiless way. I feel i am a part of something bigger. Things seem to fall in place on their own .
Life is like a painting. Everything does in fact form part of a bigger picture. Just like a digital painting (voice of experience) , we see things in magnified view.
It is when it looks the most chaotic and messed up , that things start taking shape.
I feel happy and content that its making sense now……
  • Listening to: Platinum - Maaya Sakamoto
  • Reading: Confessor


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A normal person often misunderstood.
I have already been branded an alien........................approach with caution~
I guess that means i am not normal, define normal!!
I draw and paint and edit and you may already know if you have visited my gallery. I know you are looking for the link. alright, alright i get it, i am wasting you precious time. :P…

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nao-chan99 Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav~
umi-zella Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you so much for all the favs and the watch!^^
cloudstrife1247 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
nao-chan99 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav~
cloudstrife1247 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
abcartattack Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
Really appreciate you watching my art work! Thank you :hug:
cloudstrife1247 Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
ajsanaje1 Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Long time..just dropping by to inform ya' that i wont be able to meet the August deadline for that pirate themed story we had to write ^^; School is being hefty u see.

Ciao! :D
cloudstrife1247 Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
hm.......same here, papers in mid sep
dianalovesrock17 Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you so much for the WATCH!!!! :D
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